A re-post on my previous post.
THEN:
I was new, I was cared, I was careless, I was irresponsible, I was too complacent, I was immature. I was freshly out of college with the most amazing group of the most amazing friends ever. I had the sense of security that anything might happen, my friends, my family will be there for me. My life was set. I was set. I was happy, I wasn't lonely. I had a girlfriend who loved me. I had a enviable pocket-money(I love you bhai for that), I had my car(My third love of my life, my mom and girlfriend comes first), I had my little grandma(as in she's very small compared to me, in size of course), I had the best food in the world, I had the winters, I had the summers, I had the ACs, I had the HUGE beds with Cots, I had a home theater system, I had an LCD TV and a sofa to lie down, I had a vegetable seller who used to say 'Ram Ram Bhaiya Ji!! ', I had a grocery shop who used to sell everything with a smile, I had cheap liquor which I never drank, I had cheap fuel which I burned everyday, I had my college, I had my Delhi Metro, I had connaught place, I had the central park and the lovely breeze it surrounded, I had my city, I had my DELHI.
NOW:
Its been an year and a half outside home. I have grown a bit more responsible(My mom doesn't agree), I still am careless, I have lost my complacency, I have lost my immaturity, I have lost the most amazing group of family(they are all in different places :'( ), I have my family, but only over the phone, I have another group of friends who are very good and I love them very much esp Chawal, Sethi, Chhotu, Akharia and Super-ishtaar, but the magic is not there, I have lost that sense of security, its every man for its own, my life is not set, I don't get paid THAT much, I still have my loving girlfriend(I get to meet her more :P), I have enough money per month at my disposal with not much family responsibilty, I have a DSLR camera, I have a high-end config Laptop, I have a Smart phone, I have an enviable list of perfumes and luxury stuff, I have a huge wardrobe, I don't have a car, I have the highly expensive liquor which I have to drink, I don't have the cheap petrol to burn, I don't have the winters, I don't have the summers, I don't have Arjun Pav-Bhaji waala, I don't have the street food, I don't have the 'moong-falli in razai waali sardi', I don't have a home theater, I don't have an LCD, I don't even have a chair in my home to sit, I don't have a good bed, I don't have the AC, I don't have night-outs(kal office jaana hai so jaate hain), I have rooftop parties, I have cheap CCD in my office, I have the biryanis which don't taste good anymore, I have the Pizzas and the junk we eat often, I have Club 8, I have shared auto, I have 9-6 office timings, I have a good manager and a good team, I have enough to spend on me, I don't have multiplexes every 3 Kms running empty shows, I don't have the college guy inside me anymore, I don't have the time to care about anything anymore.
I have so many things to please myself NOW. But my life can never be what it was THEN.
Because THEN, I had my home. My home is me. My home is my life, my home is my Delhi and my home is everything I had, THEN.
But still, when I find a time to write, I remember everyone and everything, I remember my home.
No matter where you go, how much you earn, one flashback can always bring tears to your eyes.
THEN:
I was new, I was cared, I was careless, I was irresponsible, I was too complacent, I was immature. I was freshly out of college with the most amazing group of the most amazing friends ever. I had the sense of security that anything might happen, my friends, my family will be there for me. My life was set. I was set. I was happy, I wasn't lonely. I had a girlfriend who loved me. I had a enviable pocket-money(I love you bhai for that), I had my car(My third love of my life, my mom and girlfriend comes first), I had my little grandma(as in she's very small compared to me, in size of course), I had the best food in the world, I had the winters, I had the summers, I had the ACs, I had the HUGE beds with Cots, I had a home theater system, I had an LCD TV and a sofa to lie down, I had a vegetable seller who used to say 'Ram Ram Bhaiya Ji!! ', I had a grocery shop who used to sell everything with a smile, I had cheap liquor which I never drank, I had cheap fuel which I burned everyday, I had my college, I had my Delhi Metro, I had connaught place, I had the central park and the lovely breeze it surrounded, I had my city, I had my DELHI.
NOW:
Its been an year and a half outside home. I have grown a bit more responsible(My mom doesn't agree), I still am careless, I have lost my complacency, I have lost my immaturity, I have lost the most amazing group of family(they are all in different places :'( ), I have my family, but only over the phone, I have another group of friends who are very good and I love them very much esp Chawal, Sethi, Chhotu, Akharia and Super-ishtaar, but the magic is not there, I have lost that sense of security, its every man for its own, my life is not set, I don't get paid THAT much, I still have my loving girlfriend(I get to meet her more :P), I have enough money per month at my disposal with not much family responsibilty, I have a DSLR camera, I have a high-end config Laptop, I have a Smart phone, I have an enviable list of perfumes and luxury stuff, I have a huge wardrobe, I don't have a car, I have the highly expensive liquor which I have to drink, I don't have the cheap petrol to burn, I don't have the winters, I don't have the summers, I don't have Arjun Pav-Bhaji waala, I don't have the street food, I don't have the 'moong-falli in razai waali sardi', I don't have a home theater, I don't have an LCD, I don't even have a chair in my home to sit, I don't have a good bed, I don't have the AC, I don't have night-outs(kal office jaana hai so jaate hain), I have rooftop parties, I have cheap CCD in my office, I have the biryanis which don't taste good anymore, I have the Pizzas and the junk we eat often, I have Club 8, I have shared auto, I have 9-6 office timings, I have a good manager and a good team, I have enough to spend on me, I don't have multiplexes every 3 Kms running empty shows, I don't have the college guy inside me anymore, I don't have the time to care about anything anymore.
I have so many things to please myself NOW. But my life can never be what it was THEN.
Because THEN, I had my home. My home is me. My home is my life, my home is my Delhi and my home is everything I had, THEN.
But still, when I find a time to write, I remember everyone and everything, I remember my home.
No matter where you go, how much you earn, one flashback can always bring tears to your eyes.
