A re-post on my previous post.
THEN:
I was new, I was cared, I was careless, I was irresponsible, I was too complacent, I was immature. I was freshly out of college with the most amazing group of the most amazing friends ever. I had the sense of security that anything might happen, my friends, my family will be there for me. My life was set. I was set. I was happy, I wasn't lonely. I had a girlfriend who loved me. I had a enviable pocket-money(I love you bhai for that), I had my car(My third love of my life, my mom and girlfriend comes first), I had my little grandma(as in she's very small compared to me, in size of course), I had the best food in the world, I had the winters, I had the summers, I had the ACs, I had the HUGE beds with Cots, I had a home theater system, I had an LCD TV and a sofa to lie down, I had a vegetable seller who used to say 'Ram Ram Bhaiya Ji!! ', I had a grocery shop who used to sell everything with a smile, I had cheap liquor which I never drank, I had cheap fuel which I burned everyday, I had my college, I had my Delhi Metro, I had connaught place, I had the central park and the lovely breeze it surrounded, I had my city, I had my DELHI.
NOW:
Its been an year and a half outside home. I have grown a bit more responsible(My mom doesn't agree), I still am careless, I have lost my complacency, I have lost my immaturity, I have lost the most amazing group of family(they are all in different places :'( ), I have my family, but only over the phone, I have another group of friends who are very good and I love them very much esp Chawal, Sethi, Chhotu, Akharia and Super-ishtaar, but the magic is not there, I have lost that sense of security, its every man for its own, my life is not set, I don't get paid THAT much, I still have my loving girlfriend(I get to meet her more :P), I have enough money per month at my disposal with not much family responsibilty, I have a DSLR camera, I have a high-end config Laptop, I have a Smart phone, I have an enviable list of perfumes and luxury stuff, I have a huge wardrobe, I don't have a car, I have the highly expensive liquor which I have to drink, I don't have the cheap petrol to burn, I don't have the winters, I don't have the summers, I don't have Arjun Pav-Bhaji waala, I don't have the street food, I don't have the 'moong-falli in razai waali sardi', I don't have a home theater, I don't have an LCD, I don't even have a chair in my home to sit, I don't have a good bed, I don't have the AC, I don't have night-outs(kal office jaana hai so jaate hain), I have rooftop parties, I have cheap CCD in my office, I have the biryanis which don't taste good anymore, I have the Pizzas and the junk we eat often, I have Club 8, I have shared auto, I have 9-6 office timings, I have a good manager and a good team, I have enough to spend on me, I don't have multiplexes every 3 Kms running empty shows, I don't have the college guy inside me anymore, I don't have the time to care about anything anymore.
I have so many things to please myself NOW. But my life can never be what it was THEN.
Because THEN, I had my home. My home is me. My home is my life, my home is my Delhi and my home is everything I had, THEN.
But still, when I find a time to write, I remember everyone and everything, I remember my home.
No matter where you go, how much you earn, one flashback can always bring tears to your eyes.
THEN:
I was new, I was cared, I was careless, I was irresponsible, I was too complacent, I was immature. I was freshly out of college with the most amazing group of the most amazing friends ever. I had the sense of security that anything might happen, my friends, my family will be there for me. My life was set. I was set. I was happy, I wasn't lonely. I had a girlfriend who loved me. I had a enviable pocket-money(I love you bhai for that), I had my car(My third love of my life, my mom and girlfriend comes first), I had my little grandma(as in she's very small compared to me, in size of course), I had the best food in the world, I had the winters, I had the summers, I had the ACs, I had the HUGE beds with Cots, I had a home theater system, I had an LCD TV and a sofa to lie down, I had a vegetable seller who used to say 'Ram Ram Bhaiya Ji!! ', I had a grocery shop who used to sell everything with a smile, I had cheap liquor which I never drank, I had cheap fuel which I burned everyday, I had my college, I had my Delhi Metro, I had connaught place, I had the central park and the lovely breeze it surrounded, I had my city, I had my DELHI.
NOW:
Its been an year and a half outside home. I have grown a bit more responsible(My mom doesn't agree), I still am careless, I have lost my complacency, I have lost my immaturity, I have lost the most amazing group of family(they are all in different places :'( ), I have my family, but only over the phone, I have another group of friends who are very good and I love them very much esp Chawal, Sethi, Chhotu, Akharia and Super-ishtaar, but the magic is not there, I have lost that sense of security, its every man for its own, my life is not set, I don't get paid THAT much, I still have my loving girlfriend(I get to meet her more :P), I have enough money per month at my disposal with not much family responsibilty, I have a DSLR camera, I have a high-end config Laptop, I have a Smart phone, I have an enviable list of perfumes and luxury stuff, I have a huge wardrobe, I don't have a car, I have the highly expensive liquor which I have to drink, I don't have the cheap petrol to burn, I don't have the winters, I don't have the summers, I don't have Arjun Pav-Bhaji waala, I don't have the street food, I don't have the 'moong-falli in razai waali sardi', I don't have a home theater, I don't have an LCD, I don't even have a chair in my home to sit, I don't have a good bed, I don't have the AC, I don't have night-outs(kal office jaana hai so jaate hain), I have rooftop parties, I have cheap CCD in my office, I have the biryanis which don't taste good anymore, I have the Pizzas and the junk we eat often, I have Club 8, I have shared auto, I have 9-6 office timings, I have a good manager and a good team, I have enough to spend on me, I don't have multiplexes every 3 Kms running empty shows, I don't have the college guy inside me anymore, I don't have the time to care about anything anymore.
I have so many things to please myself NOW. But my life can never be what it was THEN.
Because THEN, I had my home. My home is me. My home is my life, my home is my Delhi and my home is everything I had, THEN.
But still, when I find a time to write, I remember everyone and everything, I remember my home.
No matter where you go, how much you earn, one flashback can always bring tears to your eyes.
3 comments:
Thats okay! You get to learn eventually with the changes in your life which is inevitable. You can't keep cuddling those amazing days that makes you nostalgic over and over again. There is more to come. And dont worry, you have got yourself a static girlfriend. But you dont get to meet her more. Liar. :P
and the above comment is definitely from the Girlfriend !!
Haha! I love you Anonymous No.1! :*
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